lonely~ness

hi blog, sorry I haven't updated you in a while, I was just to busy with shits in my life (work, work and lastly work) well here I am again, spending time and writing things about myself. dang!



Ok updates. at my last blog I wrote about stuff at having a secure job. AND GUESS WHAT??!!

I ate it, I have a job again. although I am going to be wiser about this job. Well for starters, my recent job offered me a high salary and I think it is much more that working in my previous job, because I think this job will be BIG. I work at a law office now and how did I land there is a mystery. I am still pursuing a business with my friends and a business on my own (see I am wiser now!)

I have some nice friends there, they are going to be lawyers soon. (they told me I can be a lawyer, all i need is to study in a law school for 4 yrs and pass the board) well I won't close doors on that option, but I dont see me doing it in the near future.

OK enough about work. let's talk about the topic of loneliness :(

As you've all know (well now you are going to) I have a long distance relationship going on with my boyfriend of 3 yrs. I love him so much as in talaga! He went to the states September 2010, and I miss him....a lot. Sometimes I feel lonely, whenever I see couples holding hands, hugging each other, kissing etc...cheesy stuff...I see myself doing it with him. I know if I tell this to him, he will just say " keep yourself busy so you dont miss me too much"  or " don't worry, we'll be together this december, just hang on"

WELL I AM BUSY AND GUESS WHAT AT THE END OF THE DAY WHEN I CRAWL TO MY BED, I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU BEFORE I SLEEP AND IT MAKES ME CRY  T__T

there I said it. and the reason why I wrote this blog is not because valnetine's day, btw, it is well promoted here in our country, but because I saw an ugly  couple(hipon ang girl, gwapo ang boy) at the jeep I am riding a while ago. When I rode the second jeep, I was crying because I thought about him and the things we did when we were together physically. >__< gah! And then I felt lonely..hence this blog.. *sad face*

I know lonely din siya. I just want to find a way to be together with him *cry cry* sabi nga nya wag madaliin
but I miss him, I really do. and I really appreciate efforts from him to talk to me on skype etc. but i miss the physical HIM :( it is just not the same. I dont know how LDR works, pero grabe ang hirap nya, mas mahirap p cya sa pagiging single. :( (NOW, I know kung bat ng eend up yung iba sa hiwalyan)

all I can do is wait. wait. wait. And I hope siya rin. Sana mahintay niya ako. for now all I can give him is my trust. and ako din, masabi ko I will trust him. natatakot lang ako kasi baka ma bored siya sakin :( ksi syempre we have already different lives and different timezones. kaya ganon pa rin just HANG ON.

di naman ako nag sseek ng advice or anything. I just miss him at naiiyak lang ako minsan sa kakamiss ko sa kanya. but if you have any advice for LDR ok lang. like how to spice up the relationship on the net..YUCK. mga ganong chu chu.

ayun, yun lng ang drama ko ngayon sige next tym ulit.
pramis i uupdate na kita para mag ka fans ka naman!